Enough of this spaces malarky and tomfoolery, begone with you, time to grow up and get a proper blog so the faithfull can find me now at Gillians new space

 

thanks for reading and I'll see you at the new place.

 

Hugs

Gillian xx

Hi Girlies and thankls for the new years wishes, a big happy new year to everyone. What a trip, jungle, insects, leeches (ugh, took one to bed with me, found it in the middle of the night), underground rockfalls and getting hammered on the natives moonshine (damn it was tasty). The natives taught us traditional dancing, we taught them the Macarrena and Oops Upside Ya Head, a fair swap I reckon.

 

Lots of falling asleep to the sounds of sicadas damn they are loud, lots of treking and climbing, and two days of caving where I ended up battered and bruised from a rockfall. BIG spiders everywhere and lots of cute lizards.

 

First thing I did when I got back? showerd (I stank!!!!) washed my clothes, shaved my legs and plucked my eyebrows - ahhhh thats better 2 weeks without moisturiser - that is the hell that is the jungle :).

 

Did you know the Headhunters of Borneo were still active in world war 2? the Japanese invaded and bands of maurading Iban tribesmen used to regularly take heads from them, then a British commando parachuted in to organise the resistance and merrily encouraged them to carry on collecting heads. Fascinating stuff.

 

You meet such interesting people on these trips, didn't feel the need to confess to being a tranny tho one girl did say 'you're quite wierd aren't you?' 'Oh yes' I answered. Lots of people who are living a life instead of chasing a wage, gave me food for thought.

 

OK back to loads of email, hope you all had a great break.

 

Big hugs

All packed up and waiting to leave for the airport to wave a cheery farewell to the UK at christmas time, not for me the forced bon homme or the Sound of Music, I'll be hacking my way through Jungle till it's all done. Have a wonderful xmas and new year and I'll look forward to a better 2006 cos 2005 was a bit pants (except for the trannying which was fab!!)

 

Have a cool yule

 

Biggest hugs

Gillian xx

 

 

 

At the weekend I got a text from a friend 'Just got the xmas card (from the ex) about her news have you heard? are you OK?'

 

what a stupid text to send so I spent the day torturing myself, I didn't respond to the text as she seemed too keen to spill the big news and I'd have rather heard whatever it was from a closer friend. 10 minutes ago I got the big news, the ex is getting married again. Wow what a kick in the teeth, I'm still struggling to deal with this whole thing and less than a year after the divorce she's engaged again. I really hate how this makes me feel.

 

I would like to smile benignly and wish them both happiness, but instead I'm knotted up inside and try not to think about what I'd wish them. Does that make me a bad person? I've tried hard not to slip into bitterness through this but it's so tough sometimes.

 

Heres a rough outline of events

2003 go on holiday and meet a couple S&J, get on great

2003-2004 We visit their house they visit ours

9th July 2004 have  great night going to see The Cure with ex, main memories are cuddling her in the crowd to keep her warm, protecting her in the crush, sharing chips in the cold night air.

10th July 2004 S&J come over for dinner, the ex stays up all night talking to S

17th July 2004 ex asks for divorce

21st July 2004 S&J break up

 

This is not shaping up to be a good day but I'll get through it.

 

"Fancy coming over my gaff for a pint"

 

don't know what the going rate for this service is but I'm sure it's more than a pint :)

More new tranny experiences for me today, as my years trannying is over (boo hiss)

 

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 I was sorting through the detritus and deciding what was not going to be worn again, I found a thong I bought a while back because someone said they were good for boy bump, never wore it, still had the label on it. Not having any trannying planned I thought to hell with it lets see what a thongs like.

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I feel a need to defend myself now, this is only the second time I've done this girl stuff under boy stuff thing I'm usually all or nothing. Why I feel a need to justify myself I'm not quite sure.

 

Hmm, not a fan to be honest and I'm not sure why girls wear these day in day out, it constantly feels like boy pants feel when they need a good yank out of your bum cheeks. Interesting experience but can't say I'll be developing any great love affair with thongs.

 

It doesn't seem that great for boy bump either!! You will no doubt be pleased to know that I will not being taking any photos of this bit of trannying.